Whatev...

I want to thank you all so much for all of your comments.  They mean so much to me and keep me going day in and day out.  I really can not thank you enough.  I will try though ;)  Thank You! Thank You!Thank You!Thank You!Thank You!Thank You!Thank You!...........!!!!!!!!!


Soooo today pretty much sucked up until about an hour ago.  I have to vent so here ya go.  I will try to keep it short, and I have something positive to say in a minute.  I promise! :]

Where did it go wrong you ask?  Oh about 7 this morning :/  First my mom can't get her car started to go to work, so she takes the other one.  No biggie, I was going to ride the bus anyway.  I get to school and go to engineering class.  We are doing this project where we make custom lego parts on the computer that will fit onto regular legos.  We have to make a vehicle of some type.  Then we get to print them on the 3D printer!  Cool right?!?!  In theory...

Dimensioning lego pieces is first and foremost a pain in the ###!  And it is crucial when you make custom pieces, otherwise they won't fit the standard ones.  The real problem came today, when my part came out of the printer.  You see, the parts are built on top of another plastic as a support, and the parts themselves are made out of PVC plastic type stuff.  I got my piece today and was trying to break off the extra support material, and my door completely broke.  And then it broke again. And again. :/  Apparently the plastic isn't as strong as I thought.  I made the doors .025 in thick, which wasn't enough I guess.  I asked him if I could print it again after I made it thicker.  He said we would have to see if he has time.  What?!?!?  Ugh, now our whole project is up in the air and we have been working on it for like 6 weeks :/

Then in the last period today I had to turn in this book project we have been working on for the past few weeks.  It is a group project, so as my luck seemed to be going today, one of our members didn't bring any of his stuff in.  Great.  Then when I get the grade back I find out that I got a 10/15 (67%) on my book review.  Mind you, this is the same grade that my group member got when he wrote the review, all two paragraphs of it, right before class.  I had a whole page and it was well written so I went up to him to ask what was up.  He looked at me and told me it had to be typed.  NOTHING in the instructions said that, so I asked him "did it say anything about that"  and he is like "no, but everything has to be typed now"  WHAT!?!?!  News to me!!  And mind you, I am a good student and am pretty good at knowing what's going on...  I guess my teachers like to make up rules they never told us about...

I was looking forward to getting out to go on a ride to just get a break from all this school crap, so I went home, figured out what was wrong with the car, and got ready to drive up to pick my mom up.  Then, it rained.  And it rained more.  And more.  So no riding for me.  perfect especially when Tuesday we didn't go because it looked like it was going to rain, and it didn't!  I am so sick of this stupid weather!  Arizona, here I come!!!!!!

I promised a positive to this post, and I am a man of my word ;)  Here it is: Right now I am saying screw it. (Thanks Ellie!!)  Because you know what?  It doesn't really matter.  I have so much else I have to be thankful for!  I need to try to focus on that more, I really do.  And now I get to read your blogs and contemplate all of your deep and interesting thoughts, and get caught up on your days (which were hopefully better than mine!).  I am off to do that right now...

Have a fantabulous friday okay??  You all deserve it so much, you are brilliant!!
 

Scott

Monday 3. April 2010

Hello everybody!  I hope you all had a nice Monday :]

My day went pretty well.  I guess it started a trend when I had a sub in math :]  It was still kinda really boring, but at least we didn't have to deal with Ms. ####  that is so awful!!  Then we watched a tv show in second period called Intervention.  Have any of you seen it?  It is pretty good in my opinion.  This episode was about a crack cocaine addict and a heroin addict.  They always have an intervention at the end (hence the name of the show)  and both of these people had been sober since 2007, so it ended on a positive note.

Then in third period (band), we had a a free day!  Third one in a row! :p  I just sat around and talked and memorised some stuff for German class.

Then German was fun as usual ;)  we always do so much in each and every day!  Today we talked about another fairy tale and started working on our own.

After school today, I planned on going on a bike ride.  So I got ready and left the house by about 5:30 to get up to the starting point by 6:15.  My mom was going to drive but I wanted to be sure I got there on time.  I am paranoid about being late, but I am always early!  Anyway so I got there and no sooner than I did, a storm blew in :(  We were deciding wether or not to ride and there was a huge cool down so we decided to leave.  It was a good decision because we got a royal downpour a few minutes later.  So I was glad to have gone home.

This however, brought with it a minor problem:  I had already eaten my bar to ride :/  I know it shouldn't really matter if I ride or not after eating it, but it is such a routine for me.  I have a hard time going above and beyond my usual meal plan (I use this term loosely, I don't have a MP so to speak, more of a pattern of eating that is possibly a bit more rigid than the average person).  So, the ride home was a bit stressful because of this, but I decided to ride indoors instead.  I am happy to say that I didn't ride indoors for very long at all.  Way less than I would have outside because it is so boring.  I think that earlier on in my recovery I would have done way more on the spin bike and this change in schedule would have bothered me tremendously.  But it is OK.  Will an extra few hundred calories kill me or make me a slower cyclist? NO!!  ED lies, I tell you what, are SO irrational, and each and every time I notice this, the happier and more independent of my ED I feel.

On to some eats to finish up this post...

A snack some day. Aren't these tiny carrots? So long and skinny! with blue corn tortilla chips

A cup of yogurt-filled to the brim :)

A smoothie I made tonight. I always seem to make too much. So I get to have some tomorrow ;]

Make tomorrow a great day!  I promise to give it my all :]

Scott

The end of a long week...

WOW has it been a long week!!  I wish I could say that I have a boatload of pictures to share with you, but I don't :(  I am so sorry!!  I really must get back to a regular nightly posting routine because I absolutely love it!!  Your comments brighten my day and I just don't want to go without that.  So I am going to try next week to do my best to post more than only Monday and Friday!!

So, because I have neglected my blog for the entire week, here are a few highlights of my week :]

• I have been talking to Megan over the past week while she is being admitted to IP.  Such a sweet girl, and she really could use all of your support.
• I got to ride Tuesday and Thursday on the training ride!!  Ya, it is pretty much the norm, but after this past weekend I was a bit worried!  This weekend looks like it will be a bit better but with a bit of rain still :/
• School was CRAZY!!  Tests galore and ugh I am so glad to be through with this week!
• Finished my German project over the Indianapolis 500, in (English and German!) for my exchange trip (I can't wait to see you Pascal, Ich freue mich sehr viel daran!!)
• Got my skype working again so I was able to talk to my dad in AZ, and I am right now too!!  (I keep missing Maddi!  Darn time difference...)
• got my Lego project mostly painted for IED (intro to engineering and design)  We are making a School bus with custom parts on a 3D printer!!  I will tell you more when it is finished ;)

So that is pretty much all I did this week.  Insert a bunch of school garbage important school work and you have my week!  Now the fun part, my weekend!

Tomorrow I am planning on racing in the late afternoon as long as it doesn't rain (crosses fingers pleasepleaseplease!) hehe I am going to see my sister on Sunday in her new house on campus!!  She is taking my furniture to put in there because it isn't furnished ;]

I am off to read your posts and try to get caught up!  I will leave you with a random picture I took today...

Can you believe it‽ <-- (I just remembered that symbol, it is called an Interrobang isn't it great‽)  Edible grass for Easter baskets!  And it is from Germany!! 

Have a great Saturday everyone :)

Scott

Wash out

So, my plans for a ride outdoors this morning were washed out by the rain :/ My parents went, but I figured I might as well ride in the basement instead...

I hate it how whenever I make a decision to do anything, I am constantly thinking about how the other decision would have been better. Today, I wish I had gone with my parents riding, but I know that if I did, I would be miserable and wish I had stayed here. I don't know, I guess I am just a really indecisive person.

So I rode the bike in the basement, and felt ok, but stopped after about a half an hour because I was tired. Recently, I have not had to deal with ED's condescending voice, but today he came back shouting :( I felt so awful for not being able to ride for longer. I felt like since I had an easier workout yesterday, so I should be able to go harder today. It seems as though once ED gets a word out and I hear it, he just won't shut up! Then I kept feeling like I have gained too much weight and bla bla bla... I resisted the temptation to step on the scale when I went up stairs to get a shower, and had a nice snack of an Asian pair with some cereal and nuts instead :)

Then I sat down with a nice macchiatto with coffee roasted by my dad (thanks dad!) and read all of your wonderful posts and now I feel so much better :D *thanks everybody*

My macchiatto, isn't it pretty?

So that's about it for this morning, no interesting oats so I kinda miss that :( maybe for lunch? And I am going to small group for church today so I can't wait!

Have a great Sunday!

Scott