good ending

Well today was pretty bad. I come to school and first period find out I failed my chem test :( I am so mad because I really studied and I just bombed it. I kind of got over that in SRT (study hall, that our school feels the need to call student resource time), and then had a German club meeting about our trip to Chicago this coming weekend. I am SOOO excited. We are going to the biggest German style Christmas market outside of Germany!

Then I went to speech and I didn't want to give my speech, which is unusual for me because I always volunteer to go first or second. But just to coincide with my day, I was picked to go first. Great. I think it went okay though. I just got home now and my mom sent me this cute picture of my dog that was up on the groomers site. It is SO cute! They always dress her up like this when we pick her up

Worse Day

Well, I wish I could say today was as good as yesterday, but it wasn't. It all started last night when I came home to my dog who had eaten a ton of my bars, including two larabars! I was so mad at her for the rest of the night.

Then this morning I got to school and found out I got a 60% on my math test. Great. SOOOO the rest of the school day went okay, then I had to get picked up from school for an allergy shot. I got there, after driving for like a half an hour, just to realize I hadn't taken my allergy meds last night so I couldn't get a shot!

So if that wasn't enough, I get home to find out my dog has been on top of my kitchen table trying to eat all of my in shell nuts! Needless to say, she is going into the crate tomorrow.

Hopefully tomorrow will be loads better, I don't think it could get worse. . .

I am usually not one to post meal pics, but this was the BEST egg i have ever had! I had a pretty good day yesterday, especially at church last night. I go to a high school church group every wednesday and yesterday's message really hit home with me. The message was about how god gives 2 3 4 5 6 . . . chances. I feel so blessed that i was given a second chance to live my life and treat my body the way it deserves. I feel like i have gotten a new appreciation of the simple things in life after going through so much.

p.s. i hope you can read this, it is my first post by text message:)

sorry again

well I'm sorry for such a long break from blogging, but I have had a lot of things to do! I FINALLY convinced my mom to keep Gretchen (our new dog). She was so ready to just get rid of her. Anyway, I hope all of you had a nice thanksgiving :) I just had a thanksgiving with my cousins and other familyhere in town and it was nice. I can remember last year when I was so worried about eating things there and I wouldn't even have any bread :( I had just put a little turkey on a massive salad without any dressing. It is sad to think about my past, but it reminds me of what I don't want to go back to. My grandma is in town now, probably until about wednesday, and it is kinda stressful :/ She keeps making comments about how I am eating. Like when I have my night snack she is like "you are eating again" and then today we ate an early dinner and I ate most of my plate and she was like "You are going to gain weight if you keep eating like that." It made me so self concious because I had already been nervous about the butter in the dish, and that comment pushed me even further. I just keep reminding myself that it is OK and that I am not finished with my journey back to health, and that gaining is what I need to do. It is just so hard when people that you love are so ignorant to the sting of their words.

Hopefully this wasn't a completeley depressing post, I just needed to get my feelings out there

have a great week

Scott

Long Break

Sorry about my long absence from the blog world : I have been very busy. School has been going pretty well, but I'll find out tomorrow for sure when I get my report card. I also had an awesome exchange student, Pascal, from Germany for the past three weeks. It was so nice to meet someone new and take my mind completeley off of ED. I also got a suprise last weekend about a new dog in the house! My Grandma had gotten a friend's dog that was moving to an apartment that didn't allow dogs about 6 months ago. Apparently, she is not a dog person sooo. . . now she lives with me:) She is great and we named her gretchen. I will put up pictures soon. Hope you are all having a great week!

weekend

Had a decent weekend. Went to cincinatti to see family, and to celebrate my dad's birthday. We went on a ride saturday morning and I didn't feel too great, but then we got to see our friends and family, so that was good. Our car was making a wierd noise and we couldn't figure out what it was, and we figured out it was our brakes. Our front left brake was only being held on by one bolt! Needless to say we couldn't drive it home, and no places could fix it on a sunday. We had to drive my grandma's car home and go get the car today! Busy weekend. . . but good overall :)

hello

Hi, and welcome to my blog! I have been wanting to start a blog for a while after reading so many during my ED because they helped me so much. I hope this blog will be more than just an outlet for my feelings, I hope it will help someone else with their struggle with ED.